This quote from Christina Perri’s tattoo has been playing in my head for the longest time now:
“To thine own self be true”
Life has taught me so many things, and life has changed many parts of me (*not physically la because I am still so puny =_=*), but I have changed from that someone who has a clear purpose in life to someone who is totally lost. But one thing that I still retain until this day is what my parents have taught me, “to be kind to everyone, even when they are not kind to you.”
You can call it stupidity or totally absurd but unless you are born with a big heart, you’ll never understand and no one will blame you for being the shallow person. Just because you failed to see why do people need to be so nice doesn’t give you any right to put them in the “stupid minded people zone”. Stupid is as stupid does. Many don’t understand why I do so much for others when others treat me like a bag of garbage but seriously I don’t give a damn because I am doing what I do best, being me and me is nice!!
And me being nice doesn’t permit you to take me for granted because after all I am still a normal creature of God who has feelings and I.DO.FEEL.HURT!! I may have a big heart but my heart is not made of steel. Maybe it is not as warm as what it used to be because I am changing into a very cold-hearted person, but deep inside I know it takes only one person to bring me back to who I really am.
It is sickening when people think that they can mistreat all the kind hearted people. No, don’t even think about it because these people are either a blessing or curse to you. Treat them nice, they are a total blessing, treat them like shit, they are your curse, and one day karma will bite you back and it will bite you real hard. But lucky you because nice people are so forgiving. It is their nature.
Frankly speaking, I did try to be a mean person, but I failed miserably. How mean can I get, seriously? Just before I get the chance to be mean, I find myself being all soft hearted and nice. Dammit Veronica, just grow horns already!! I have seen so many bad people in the world and sometimes I wonder how the heck they can be so mean when I have to try real hard to be mean. The meanest thing I have tried to do so far is…..NONE that I can really think of. If you do know, please let me know. I am not saying we are angels. We are no angels, we can be devils in disguise but if all devils are like us, there’d be peace in the world by now. But seriously, we do get tired from being mistreated like we are nothing but a speck in your eyes.
Sigh.
