Finally Teddy called today only to piss me off in the end. He said he dreamed about me and the dream goes like this.
“I saw you were old and weak and you looked miserable. And you were pregnant! And you were at UTM SPACE for your PhD and you failed your English Proficiency Test. “
English is like my first language now because 80% of the time I’d converse and write in English although frankly speaking I speak and write broken English most of the time and pay very little attention whether my sentences are grammatically correct or not. I believe confinement limits the flow of ideas hence I do not really care about my grammar but I do care about my spellings. SPELL-IT-RIGHT. I really cannot take it when people spell certain words wrongly and I just cannot help it but to correct them although I’d feel really hesitate to do so just in case I’d bruise their alter ego unintentionally =__=
And as for the preggie part, I just don’t get it. I seriously don’t get it. Perhaps he was just troubled or maybe he was trying to scare me hoping that I would practice celibacy? Why would he care anyway whether I am a celibate or not? Or maybe he seriously needs to get laid!
And to reply him, I told him that I didn’t have a dream about him, but I have dreams about him, the same dream for nights! I dreamed that he was so financially broke that he sold every single things he owned, including the things that he didn’t own aka my stuffs. And where did the money go? He spent all the mullah on his GF who eventually left him because he couldn’t financially support her anymore. Gheez…classic case and I bet he is very familiar with situation like this and perhaps I am just lucky that I don’t depend on men to financially support me and I never expect them to. And seriously, that was my dream and I had the same dream for three nights. And I am not lying! There you go!
Anyway, I believe he was just trying to ruin my day and guess what you have not successfully done so because here I am still alive and kicking and writing about you!
The end~
” here I am still alive and kicking and writing about you! ”
this is life , we should leave our past behind , and look forward .
I’ve been living with my past for years and still hunting me , and I’ve been trying to kick it and leave it . BUT unfortunately I couldn’t
Yeah, as much as we try and want to leave our past behind, most of the time it would come back to haunt us in one way or another no matter what. I am trying to live my present life without looking back but there are times when I have to look back once in a while to tell myself that “Hey, I have moved on and I survived!” No one can leave their past totally, but I guess what we can do is to learn to live with it and at the same time living our present life.